I Miss You, Mom

 

I think I have read and re-read my moms obituary 47+ times in the last month.  The holidays are the most difficult time for me, when it comes to missing my mom.  My daughter and I often talk about mom/grandma - remembering what a wonderfully beautiful angel my mom was, inside and out.  I pray she is watching over us, especially during this time of year.

My mom had more love in her than anyone I have ever met.  Her ability to fully forgive amazed me.  She was so talented also.  She was an executive at work and a fully present mom at home.  Years ago we found a flaw in her...she turns every song into a country song when she sings it.  LOL  Have you every heard Air Supply sung in country twang?  I have.  Just thinking about it makes me smile.  

My mom had the most beautiful relationship with her father (my grandpa).  He, like my mom, was so giving and loving.  I do not remember a lot about my grandmother, on my moms side, but I have a very clear vision of coming through the front door at my grandparents house, seeing my grandmother in her chair in the living room, and running to her lap to play paddy cake.  Even today, remembering their home fills me with love.  

As we prepare for the week of celebration, I hope I pass even a smidge of my mothers loving spirit onto our children and grandchildren.  

Thank you for all you have taught me, shown me and allowed me to explore.  I miss you, Mom.  Everyday I wish I could pick up the phone and call you.  I love you more than I can possibly describe and wish you were here with us still.