Reflection

The end of 2017 is staring us in the face.  Taking time to look at the last year has proven to be beneficial for me the last few years and I found myself doing it again. 

It is the end of November and we are on vacation with two of our six children.  We just left off our five year old with his mom back in Tucson.  Although we wish we could take him with us on this vacation we agreed not to disrupt his school schedule. 

Back in January of this year I was let go from a job because I needed to take two days off to have surgery.  In February I opened the doors to my new business.  In May I had gastric bypass surgery.  In July I bought a new car.  In September we went on our annual trip to Colorado.  I could list for quite some time the things we had go on this year.  My business bypassed every goal we made, by far. 

The reason I list these things is because it is a great reminder to me that those negative things that did happen to not have to control how I feel about 2017.  My oldest son has a great job, my 16 year old has his own car, girlfriend and sports, my daughter is incredibly smart and gifted and my husband has become an outstanding role model for all of us. 

I have always wanted my own business.  I never had the support to do it.  I knew I could offer something to small businesses at a price they could afford with a benefit they could measure.  I got my first e-book done and published.  I have another song recording in Nashville.  How can I hold onto any of those moments of hurt from 2017?

The biggest thing for me in 2017?  I found forgiveness.  Not only for those who have lied or hurt me, but for myself.  I will no longer blame myself for all the failures.  I have learned from them.  I refuse to let them change who I am.  I will forever help those who need it.  That is who I am.  A handful of people that lost their ethics and morals can't leave a lifetime mark on me.  I have to much to do in this life and to much to give.  I want to forever be me.