Most of the time I have been fight writers block, lack of time and some days just having a lack of positivity shuts me down. That is not me and it certainly is not who or what I want to share with the world.
I have had friends abandon me, parents disown me and what I considered true friends hurt me with words that although I will forgive - I will never forget. I realize those things alone would of taken many people out, yet I learned some amazing things about myself, my kids, my husband and who my real, true friends are.
I fight this view of me all the time. The "She will be OK, she is tough" attitude everyone has towards me. Let me just make something completely clear - strong does not mean without feelings. I chose not to react to the hate. I chose not to apologize when I was not wrong. I chose to live my life in a positive way and place. That place is my home - with my husband and our children.
My children have proven to be the most mature and thoughtful people in my life. My oldest son knows me better than I ever imagined. My middle son has been the strong one. My baby girl, although she struggles, is always a 100% on board with her mom.
Then there is my husband. Who knew that such an amazing man even existed? A man that is real, kind, true and possibly the most loving human I have ever met. He gives in more ways than I knew possible.
Finally - my friends. Many of those special people showed there beautiful colors the last month I was in Colorado. Between planning a wedding reception, having a going away breakfast and partying with me at Fusion on my final night in town...these friends are keepers.
I'm thankful. I'm loved. I'm happy.
