I can't take more loss.
I have always been the type that just barrels through, but this one, this one I can't take.
I thought losing my mom was hard but this - this is unbearable.
I replay it all in my head, constantly. Is it possible that I am truly am in this alone? Did I learn all my lessons to late? Did I really hurt him more than he loves me?
What is more crazy is how much I have forgiven, overlooked, accepted - all because of the love I carry.
They don't teach you this in school. I have given it all I have, spoken all my truth, apologized and acknowledged my wrongs - I am simply not worth it.
